Several Kind Of Meet

Several kind of meeting who bring joy in our life
Meets who likes……..

ROSE
It’s kind and beautiful,
No doubt everyone loves it.
But remember,
Rose is thorny,
So that bring us tears and pain when we get hurt.
It’s mean we need to be treated with a great caution.

FIRE
It’s seems dangerous but once we can handle,
It will help so much and make our life more easy.
Obviously,
Fire can help to warm our life up.

SUN
It’s usual and looks nothing special.
But don’t rule it into count.
‘Cause the sun always comes without request,
And never stop to light up the dark
Giving new life
That’s sign of eternal life
And
Effort not to giving up for anything

HANDKERCHIEF
It’s seems doesn’t special enough
But,
There’s something we didn’t realize
It will wipe our tears when we are crying
Make some nice look in our dress
And it will be the first aid when we are upset
‘Cause it always stay inside our pocket,
Who will follow whenever we’ll traveling around………

So……
What kind of meet you already seen???????

Big Beautiful Illusion

I never really understand
Never really knowing
When suddenly he took all my attention
Then..
Replace somebody’s place who have been there for so long already
Things happen pretty fast
I ain’t even realized
Yet everything stays same still
Always and only an illusion
One big beautiful illusion
Fun game who played inside my head
And so, pleasant and cheerful things
That I never mean to feel it
It’s quite funny, though
I laugh and upset not for the real thing
And only the tears, left for all my reality
About my weakness and worthless I have

Restless

In the very early morning
When only the shadows in the ceiling
The sun have not been rise yet
Dark grey blue in my sight
I woke up from my dream
Dream about the guy who recently followed
Even he will never know about me,
About how much I care
About how much his appearance really meant to me
Never……………………
To be honest, I am the kind of young woman who has such a fairy tale imaginations
Like a good-looking and very kind prince with his white horse come to rescue me
Loving me ever after and protect me from harm
But when I look around then I realized
There’s no such a thing in this world
In the real world
This is only a big dumbly fool of fantasy
And so,
This thing makes my fear about love, about relationship getting stronger day by day
I do not want to live in this such a lies
But at the same time I have no brave enough to face this cruel world

THE DEAL

I wake up with jolt when realizing I dreamed about something I supposed to be our. I dream that we were there and David was crowning the title!!

Huft… What the heck!!

I look around me and I could make out nothing more than darkness and opaque wall in my room. I stir my head, I see a silhouette lying beside me, it realize me where I am, I’m in a reality. I slip out of my bed with very minimum of noise, been trying not to wake him up.

Slowly, I lock my self in my office; turn the computer on; make my self busy with the_whatever_things, even though at the end I found nothing.

I am hardly breathing; open the drawer and took a cigarette, something I never touch again for years but these recent days really drive me crazy, this is my only help to keep myself under the sense. In spite of, it is all about him, David. The only person who I can to talk to, but I can talk about him with himself, can I?

Stars glimmering palely mix with grey blue of the break day sky. I see half moon smiling at me on the east as the slit crimson gold of sun’s rays begin to rose up from the horizon. A bit cold and windy as now early autumn and always deliver with unique smell.

It is the day, the big day where we supposed to drive in through, but we are not, we are here, at home. My thought train back to a couple days ago, when finally we decided to give up.

His mother called me, just to check her son, before she appeared out in our garage herself.

‘Have I voice here?’ asked her while we are already sat together.

‘Yes of course, just speak up,’ replied Albert, David personal and team manager,

‘You really wanna go?’ again, she asked but now her addressing more to David than to anybody else here.

David nodded as his answer.

‘Well, if I have said, why don’t you just stay a week longer, you’re there or not it doesn’t make any difference to him, right? He’ll be crown, surely. How much your ability to deprive? It’s very slim, isn’t? Forget this. You stay, continue your recovery and get ready to defend your spot next rounds. Don’t be silly, I’m not speaking as your mother, but as your fans, we don’t want you push yourself to hard; we don’t want you to get another serious injury. Please think carefully before you make decision to go.’ Said her to advice her son.

‘But doctor has clearance of me.’Insist David.

‘And I try to clear your mind,’ smiled her.

At last, that was the decision. We give up.

This moment, I have to honest to myself if I can really accept this situation, although two days ago I was on mom’s side, while I persuaded David. ‘Mom’s right, we don’t have to push our self beyond the limit, mathematically we’re already lose. Why don’t we get this and prepared for next year, for instance?’

Right now, that stuff really irritating and it hard for me to get the reality is, and we are really, truly lose. Today, it will be reveal, who is the king.

Stars still glimmering above, I look my watch, it is the time!

I take my feet back from balcony; turn the TV on. Narrowly finish, but it has not yet. Five minutes, four minutes, time seemingly goes slowly even I know, for us, it is already finish!

He has it, really he is.

I see Prince smile widely, he so, so happy with his achievement, to be back on top the rostrum. But my eyes cannot off from him!

The happiest man today

I turn the TV off exactly he shown the plaque who wrote “GAME OVER”. I am turning back to the balcony.

Yeah… The game was over; I knew it right after I flew from Japan a week ago.

The sky brighter right now, but I felt that the sun will never come out!

Somewhere inside me seemingly wants to protest. I could feel there are part of it wants to scream out loud. Screaming to the dawn, screaming to…… I don’t even know whether somebody or something wants to listen. Loads of “why” question began to coming out one by one, things who annoying me lately.

However, I am laughing myself for being unsporting and unfair people. How could I standing up his win? The facts unquestionably that he deserved it, but then, again-I retort my self-and so does David! He did not deserved this kind of injury, not when he on his best shape; not when his dream just two steps ahead; not when the crown lying inches away.

And what was the deal? It was we had to bury that dream; had to forget this; had to let it go from our hands.

I take another cigarette, but after a second or two I decide not to smoke, anymore, yet I did not put it back to the pack. I told myself, parroted him, the game was over. I close my eyes and sudden picture form in my mind, the game was over, yes it was, but it definitely for him, not for us. We still have a lot of things to fight for, and that is the fact. It is true. We will be back with another purpose.

‘What ‘re you doin here.’

I nearly jump to the air when I heard someone voice behind me, surprisingly I turn my head.

‘Oh gosh!! You almost gave me the heart failure! Make a sound please, don’t just slip in like this’ I said with my heart still beating quite fast as if I just run for miles.

David look at me with confuse mimic, then he said, ‘make a sound? I did! Didn’t you hear when the door opens? It was you who drown in your own mind.’

‘What are you doing anyway; it’s too early for you to wake up.’ I asking just to change the topic.

‘It was me who supposed to ask that question, isn’t it?’ I did not answer, so he went on, ‘I woke up and didn’t know where you were, I have been searching you around the house’

‘You were searching me?! You didn’t need to do that-‘

‘Then don’t just disappeared, I’m terrified!!’ interjected him abruptly.

‘Hey, take it easy. I’ll not go anywhere’ I smile but then fell solemn at once he gave me a fierce glare. ‘Okay, I’m sorry, really. I was dream about something ugly and don’t wanna wake you up if I keep staying there, so I slip out and locked myself here, I didn’t mean to terrified you. I’m sorry. ’

David face still looked angry.

‘Oh come on, I’m really sorry’

When his irritated face softened I said, ‘let’s get back to sleep, then. You need rest more than usual.’

Under my breath, I was wondering whether David suspect anything with my disappearance just now. I was sure that he does not forget about what the event is held today, this morning, but he seems not bothering to tell me that.

There are moment that I feel he wants to spit it out, he remain silent, though. He might have known, this is not the thing we need to talk to; to discuss about or he just simply wants to spare my feeling. He knows clearly how much my disappointment.

I have no dare to touch him even though he lying so near beside me, not with my thought full of his stuff. After a minute or so, probably longer that I can’t be sure of, and my mind was completely drained with heavy thought, I am fallen asleep. It just a good sign for me and wishes the cloud will clear up by the time I wake up.

The sun began to rise up in the horizon this moment, but I have no desire to enjoy it as I usually do. I would rather to close my eyes ad trying to forget unsatisfied things that came consecutively in these recent days.

In my fond hope, that I have more strength to face all these stuff, because this way, our way is very cruel. You do or lose the game, which is the deal.

I BELIEVE

Sun shine brightly, it would be the hottest summer season
Sweaty day and I still stand up firmly
What do you see in me?
A stubborn daydreamed girl?
Yeah.. I could be the one of those kind

But I’ll never give up
Dream make me stronger
Hope build me to believe
What else I could do to keep on my stage?
Just one thing
Faith on me for not to lose even just once

The dream I’ve dreaming could be too beautiful to dream for
The path lying next to me could be too hard to walk through
As the river keep flowing heading to the sea
Then here I’m now with countless stone I’m escape from
Keep and keep on flowing along my way
Ocean just next to me, unlimited wide blue sea
Can you see the silver lining there?

The moon shine brightly, it would be the warmest winter season
Freezing night and I’m alone all along
What do you see in me?
A stone-hearted silly girl?
Yeah I could be the one of those kind

Still I can’t just giving up to everything
Keep on dreaming high without losing reality
And back again without fail
Just when I hold the dream on
Then a new hope will follow
I believe