Tara Lee, Music and I

Tara Lee, Music and I

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photo by linkin park

It’s been while since my last post in here.

Well, I’ve been busy with my book project that I’ve never imagine before that solely being writer is busy enough for me keep in touch with my fan girl’s life before. I still around CNBOICE though, but since my translators also decrease gradually, the fan site is also not as active as before. That sad to admit but well, even admin has life and work to life LOL

There some change for my self too and if you guys notice, in my last few posts in here is about EXO and Wu Yifan, did I switch fandom?

No, I’m not, I’m still Boice.

It just that, CNBLUE’s music recently changes their direction which was nae style aniya if Kris said.

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photo by cnblue japan

photo by cnblue japan

Then is EXO my style? Not either, just new things to distract me.
The frequent questions to me recently are, why I keep on complaining about CNBLUE — be it music, appearance, drama or crazy schedules (well for schedules I complaining for EXO too — especially M) — but shut my mouth about EXO?

The answer is easy.

CNBLUE and EXO are different. That’s all.
From the start CNBLUE being prepared to be band, to be musician while EXO being prepared to be entertainer, performer that is why I have never complain about their appearance or outfit they wear on or off stage (I even love EXO when they’re wearing suit like Growl era ^^ but sorry for CNBLUE Can’t Stop :|)

Then what about Mayday, L~arc~an ciel?

L~arc~an ciel is visual kei band and even if Mayday is not either, but from the start they have that style which is hard to justice. Meanwhile, CNBLUE is not in between. Their Japanese style was cool before but recently is not my style, sorry.

And speaking of CNBLUE, maybe there question why I didn’t say much about Go Your Way and Wave. Yes, as expected, the only two songs I fancy about, Control and Paradise and if you listen to them you will know why I like those songs. I won’t say much ‘cause there nothing new to say.

I’m still waiting for Yonghwa and Jonghyun to back on their track and giving me wonderful excitement just like they did for Come On single. Up until now I still remember how excited I was when the teaser was out and even stay up till morning just to wait for the PV released.

Oh and my promised I made is still on.

If CNBLUE release a full-length album and 75% song go with Come On and Get Away’s style, I’ll buy the entire versions and go to their tour, all tour.

I don’t know if they do that in the future though.

Actually my most problem with CNBLUE is not with their music, but more, I don’t like they being follower, I like them as trendsetter. Just like they did before as new leader of new Korean music, unlike what they did recently.

If you ask me what band that never fails me, my answer is only one. LINKIN PARK!!! From the beginning until now, all they do to create new trend without losing their original sound as LP even though every member have side project.

Can CNBLUE follow or even to better than them?

Enough for CNBLUE and now let’s talk about my baby, yes, he is, Fanfan hahaha

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left to right, Sam Ku, Kris Wu, Kevin Wu photo by Kevshin7

There lot of things to talk about him but I prefer to talk about what happen yesterday when I almost shrieking upon seeing the picture on Instagram.

At that time, there no confirmation it was Fanfan or not but, BUT not me if I can’t recognize him from the back, I know it was him then Kevin confirmed it.

It was like heaven for me. It was simple, but meaningful.

I almost can imagine what kind of music they’re working on right now.

If you ask whether their music is my style, my answer is still no, but why I keep rooting to them? Simple, the same reason with CNBLUE why I like their Japanese song more than Korean. Although I can’t deny their Korean songs were cool, perfect in many ways, but sorry. I’m not.

I’m not racist

But for me, being musician it means you work on your own music with all you heart and might, that is why self composed song is very demanding to me. For me, I better listen to underrated song but self-composed rather than high rated and popular but it was another composer’s work.

Ever since I listen to lullaby, I keep hoping that one day, Fanfan will have their own music and collaborate with Kevin (which is now happening). I don’t know if they will collaborate in a song or just being producer, but either way, they will produce a music that help Fanfan out of his box he’s been inside for 9 years.

High hope for their work!!!

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EXO Kris, When Tears Can’t Stop Falling

EXO Kris, When Tears Can’t Stop Falling

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In the past few days with unclear fog under your circumstances right now, I have no mood to follow any of EXO updates. I know the rest of the members trying their best to pull their long awaited concert with the best they can.

Seeing FA or any story about it, I can’t help but wishing some miracle and I see your airport picture for you to comeback to them.

Today is also Suho’s birthday, imagining how hard his situation right now, I seriously want to punch you for being jerk. How come you let him being single parent?

Dear Wu Yifan, your wife surely missing you in her birthday and so your 10 kids.

Did you know I don’t have a heart to watch EXO’s concert message? ‘Cause it seriously bad feeling to see your item was pulled out, or your poster being photoshopped, as if it’s already confirm that you’re really leaving. Because I almost fly there just to see you for the first time. Who knows things will end up this way.

Because surely, I wish there ‘Waddup I’m Kris from Galaxy’

But I know very clearly, there no more Galaxy on EXO as well as Fanfan.

I think, I’m not the only one who miss the Galaxy here. And how come I’m not tearing up seeing this picture proudly expanded on my twitter?

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This Panda surely miss you very much Mr. Galaxy.

And I really am miss you Fanfan.

I hope wherever you are right now, you will always be happy and healthy. Because when you’re happy, you will smile and your smile the most beautiful sight in the whole galaxy.

 

Photo Credit Becca and Stef

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EXO Kris, When Hope is Falling, Wu Yifan

EXO Kris, When Hope is Falling, Wu Yifan

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I can’t believe that my first post about EXO will be such a heart breaking post.

I can’t believe that my first post about EXO will be such a heart breaking post.

Maybe not many people know that I grew fond toward that dozen of wolfs (well it’s not likely they will be dozen anymore – at least for me) but I do and I the most heart breaking for me is that I have to post something about great damage caused by my ultimate bias.

It’s merely less than 3 months I know Wu Yifan which known as EXO Kris, and less than couple of months I know EXO.

Yifan lead me into EXO and that’s how everything was started for me. Another boy to fond of. But right in the early morning (afternoon in Asia) when I was about to check my work, it was like a bomb explode under my nose when I read series of articles in China portal news.

WU YIFAN FILED TERMINATION OF HIS EXCLUSIVE CONTRACT

What the hell was that?

I can’t process those articles properly, what happen with sudden storm in the bright sunny day?

I know Yifan wasn’t with the boys after their Showcase in Shanghai, I didn’t suspect anything that day, instead I felt slightly happy since finally he got day off since he looked unwell in the past few weeks.

Who’s going to expect that his disappearance that day is the beginning for me and for all the EXO fandom scattered into pieces?

Now it’s been three days after his official filing the termination. And I don’t know how thing will goes and surely it’s bad.

I don’t know what actually going on between him and the company and the real reason behind his coward action. Because for me this case is bearing a big black hole and many things could fit in. but whatever it is I’m not in the position to say anything or assuming and carelessly post in.

Back to my word why I called coward action, yes, for me it’s such a coward. If the whole things are like what we see – that the other 11 members didn’t have any clue about his termination demand – I’ll go on Tao’s word and this is unforgivable betrayal.

Being one of the leader, being one of the eldest in the team, and being one of the longest in the company he shouldn’t just left without word. If he does really want to leave at least give them warning, give them sign if they will go without him, so they can preparing themselves.

Because dancing unlike how band will do covering the missing. If you’re band member even the last minute one of your member missing, you can just put additional player, sit them in and give them the scores and show will go on but not with dance (I’m not minimize the difficultness of being band member because I’m big fan of band in the first place and EXO is my first dancing idol I like, I just saying the fact).

As we’re all know EXO’s dance is complex, its okay if he didn’t have much line to sing – for me honestly, his disappearance won’t affect the whole singing lines – but surely the team can’t just put somebody else to step in his dance position.

Seeing how the rest of the boys struggle, I just can’t forgive him that easy. Especially for EXO-M, they lost their leader and if EXO will able to cover his absence, EXO-M will be much in trouble. Also for other Chinese members, Luhan, Yixing and Tao, because it would be them who faced the damages caused by their fellow countryman.

Everyone has a dream − big dream − , ambition, and selfish side but then again pursuing personal dream by ruining other’s dream is just not right. I’m not saying he shouldn’t leave, he can leave, he can. But still, don’t left without word, don’t let them hanging. And if that exactly he’s doing – leaving without word – I’ll say he’s on the wrong side and I won’t defend him because of that.

But then again, it was like endless circle, if Yifan is all happy with everything he had and the company offered he wouldn’t go this far, would he? And again, law things isn’t something you can do just by one night, no it’s not. As I said before, there something behind this case that only them who involved know.

I’m not taking side here, I’m still Yifan’s fan, I won’t leave him whatever his decision is, no matter he did mistake or whatever people call him. But I’m this kind of fan, I can’t just close my eyes seeing my bias doing mistake. It’s hurt to admit but it was him doing.

Some say, there other parties who help him in this matter, and I kind of agree. I don’t think he would be able to do all of these mess by himself. This case is too reserved to begin with. But then again, I won’t assuming or help the EXO’s hater to ruin their image further.

EXO is innocent, they hurt more than everyone can imagine right now. They can do nothing but going through this mess.

Here is the song I listen for million times since yesterday, Caihong which mean Rainbow original song by Jay Chou once Yifan and Yixing cover this song. I hope Yifan will remember this song.

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Rainbow

Tell me where there are rainbows
Can you give me back my wish?
Why is the sky so tranquil?
All the clouds have come to where I am

Have you got a mouth mask you can give me?
I let go and said too much, then those things can’t be realised
Perhaps time is a kind of cure
It is also the poison I am taking right now

If I can’t see your smile
How can I get to sleep
Your voice is so near yet I can’t hold you
The sun will still spin without the earth
I can still walk by myself without a reason

You need to leave
I know it’s very simple
You said that reliance
Was our obstacle
Even if you let go
But can you not confiscate my love?
Just pretend that I only understood at the end

If I can’t see your smile
How can I get to sleep
Your voice is so near yet I can’t hold you
The sun will still spin without the earth
I can still walk by myself without a reason
I let go and say too much, then those things can’t be realised
Perhaps time is a kind of cure
It is also the poison I am taking right now

 

Oh here I just found other opinion about this case read here

Photo Credit SM Ent

Rainbow English Lyric Credit Jay Chou Studio

Video Credit Juju Apples

Written and Posted by by Tara Lee